at this swingers party but can't have fun. there is something off. has been off for a while. i'm hiding in the bathroom giving him time alone. for some reason i find myself in here contemplating the future of our marriage. i'm just not feeling it. period. i find myself wondering how the single life would feel. not to go out and party, but just to be me without him. to be me without his critical eye and closed minded opinions. what a place to be having these thoughts!