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High Ass Fuck

sorry if the title misleads you. i won't be telling you a tale of a night getting fucked in the ass and high as hell. I am high as fuck and in the mood to write.

There are a few issues. the first is that i was never really a fan of having a guy go down on me cuz they were all really really bad at it, i didn't like it. but now i really really want it. Why do i want it? is it because he's not in sync with my tits anymore? he used to be able to make me cum just from the way he plays with them. He can't anymore. we've lost that magical connection where the moment i desired it he did it. he was so tuned into me as far as my tits went that i didn't need anything else.

But he's not anymore, and now i'm getting desperate! and why is he not tuned in anymore? did i change the station? the sandpapery feel of his stubbly chin and lips on my delicate skin is an immediate mood killer. i cover them up and no sooner is my shirt down to my belly he's pulling it back up! he's also handling them so rough it seems. Maybe i'm just feeling this now because I really really want a girl in my life. which was first the rabbit or the egg (too close to easter and I'm high so that's how i fucked that one up)?

All i know is that i'm dreaming about bitches all the time. I love seeing hot chicks on t.v. the kind of chicks i like, with piercings, tattoos, and sweetly/sexy/trashy makeup. While dreaming about it i have started dressing the part. why can't i be one of those sweetly/sexy/trashy chicks? I'm a good girl, i wouldn't steal, shoot heroin, or be in and out of rehab. that's the sweet part. (and i don't want any of that drama!) I'm sexy as hell because I know I am. I know I could lose a few lbs in most guys eyes, but that isn't all guys. I don't want to be one of those super scrawny chicks. you know what i'm talking about. the point just on this side of anorexic. i don't like hip bones and scarecrow arms. and trashy makeup is hot as fucking hell. tattoos... fucking... make.. me.. wet! thats what i want now. a tattoo.... so hot!

i know i started talking about him, but hot girls are more fun to read about than bitchy writing. i love spending time looking up youtube videos looking at the hot girls putting on makeup. Y? because all i want is a hot sexy trashy bitch visiting me while the kids are in school.

a hot chick like a whitney and sara. ok so two hot chicks. the two types of sexy bitches i like. plus whitney has to be the best fuck ever or so many chicks wouldn't have gone all fatal on her ass. and come one, if you have one hot chick you might as well have a trifecta of hot chicks. having two hot women's lips on my body, their hair tickling my body. and don't get me wrong, i don't just want to feel those things, i want to do them too. but for now, let me just enjoy receiving.

I want to get fucked soooo fucking good that i won't be able to see straight. I know a girl who is a great finger fucker. i didn't even have to move and she was just, fucking, on it! i'd love to do it again and this time fuck her finger just as good as her finger fucks me. let me grind against you, writhe beneath you, bite, and groan, and gasp. gently bite and suck on my neck. god, like that chick at mi6. so fucking hot!

I want to stop fucking dreaming about it and start fucking doing it. fuck i want to do it right now. that's what i'll do tomorrow. i'm going to get all hot and then i'm going to fuck some hottie. I promise. tomorrow is friday the 13th so all the really dark hot girls are going to be out. i'm going to smoke and go party. maybe fullerton. who knows, but i promise you that it will be good and i will write the details and share. xoxo

fuck fuck fuck

not high right now but maybe i should be. i think i need to be high in order to say what i really want to say. otherwise i over think it, i censor it, i keep it bottled up. will he ever read this? i don't know. i worry that he'll be hurt, he'll be embarrassed, he'll be mad.

but what about me?!?! i'm frustrated, i'm horny, i'm in need! i need to get fucked the way i want to get fucked. i need to get fucked by someone that can just do me so fucking good. get fucked by someone that knows exactly how far to go, when to stop, and how to make me fucking melt. i need someone that can get me out of my head.

do you know what i'm talking about when i say that? touch me, lick me, fuck me so good that i forget about everything else. all that exists in the world is just u and i and that thing you happen to be doing to me in this moment. isn't that what we all want?

i may sound a little greedy telling you what i want, but i'm not. i'm a giver, a pleaser, and certainly a teaser. i know i'm good in bed. i know i give good head. i know how to work it just right. but i'm tired. tired of always being the one giving and never the one receiving. when i do receive i'm tired of being disappointed.

i hate the thought of being a crappy fuck. fucking hate it! but i'm at the point where i'm going to give what i get. i don't know if it's going to work but i'm barely hanging on right now. i'm fucking desperate for some amazingly awesome fucking sexual encounter.